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drunkpomeranian:

i do, i don’t care
i am capable of feeling contentment again so your misplaced pride in a nebulous concept of mental independence can fuck right off

agreed, there is nothing wrong with taking medication to help with a medical condition

drunkpomeranian:

i do, i don’t care

i am capable of feeling contentment again so your misplaced pride in a nebulous concept of mental independence can fuck right off

agreed, there is nothing wrong with taking medication to help with a medical condition

1 year ago 333 notes Via drugdoer-deactivated20140123 By medicated-misery
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"If you’re an introvert, you also know that the bias against quiet can cause deep psychic pain. As a child you might have overheard your parents apologize for your shyness. Or at school you might have been prodded to come “out of your shell”— that noxious expression which fails to appreciate that some animals naturally carry shelter everywhere they go, and some humans are just the same."

- Susan Cain, Quiet: The Power of Introverts in a World That Can’t Stop Talking (via eloquence)

Borderline Personality Disorder Problem #51

bpdproject:

Finally getting a date, then hoping like hell they don’t actually like you because it’ll just be easier. Then, when they don’t like you, you wonder why the hell they didn’t like you. Also, the awkward silence that follows when someone asks about your interests.

Anonymous Submission

still coming to terms with the fact that this isn’t normal

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“Binge drinking is a symbolic proxy for high status in college,” said study co-author Carolyn Hsu, an associate professor of sociology at Colgate University in a statement, noting that it’s what the wealthy, powerful and happy students on campus do.

Low-status students in turn reported being happier if they binged than if they didn’t. Indeed, alcohol seemed to be the great social equalizer, bringing members of low-status groups to happiness levels similar to those of greater social power if they binged. “Students in all groups consistently liked college more when they participated in the campus’ binge drinking culture,” Hsu said. Since the study has not yet been subjected to peer review, its findings should be considered preliminary.

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- Why College Binge Drinkers Are Happier, Have Higher Status

There's More to Life Than Being Happy - The Atlantic

why finding meaning > pursuit of happiness

"I finally understood and accepted that alcohol amplifies my negative feelings to a level where I cannot manage them, so it is like a “gateway drug” into emotional chaos. I was diagnosed around age 31, about six years ago, but I did always know something was off for me. Like you, I thought it was depression, and I thought it was basically what I learned in my undergraduate literature courses to call the “human condition.”"

- Lisa Johnson on her BPD

"A type of personality disorder called “borderline personality disorder” was an exception to the neurotic rule - those afflicted tended to unravel and even appear to be psychotic while receiving the old-fashioned on the couch free association type of therapy called psychoanalysis. That’s where the name “borderline” came from in the first place - it was thought to be on the “borderline” between psychosis and neurosis."
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It has been noted that some features of Avoidance extend
into areas where the individual will fear intimate and sexual
contact even when attracted to the other person. They may
allow themselves to admire and have feelings from a distance
as long as the other person doesn’t know. This is sometimes
termed as “unrequited love.”

It has been said that Avoidant Personality Disorder is a chronic
condition of self-loathing through self deprivation and in
essence much of this behavior has become a comfortable
but lethal habit where relationships are concerned.

Some with intimacy intolerance are addicted to the “thought
of love and romance” but once faced with the prospect will
pull away. Others may be addicted to porn and or fantasy
which on every inhabitable level will most certainly add an
even heavier layer of distancing to any viable relationship
the Avoidant encounters.

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